Love conquers all....

Like I said last time and that is what I’ve believed  all me live and maybe this thought has helped me through many of the worst times in my live. 

My thoughts are the only things that I have full control over and its op to me to use them in a positive way to help me overcome my worst fear, to be able  to forgive, to go on with my healing process. My thoughts are mine and only mine, and from now on I’m only allowing positive, constructive, loving thoughts go through my mind.

It’s going to be a challenge and I know that I will do some mistakes, be annoyed, answering back and all that, but I will always try to remember to love myself and gently push myself up on the track again.

I know that whatever I’ve done good or bad I have done of my best knowledge, and that knowledge I took from the baggage I came with from my upbringing, that’s something I cannot chance but I can chance my thoughts and make them more healthy, I can start by working on my forgiveness, it’s hard and takes time but I know I will be there one day and then I will feel a big relive and a heavy burden taken of me, I look forward to that day.

The hardest think about forgiving is trying to imagine some of these people as a little child and try to set myself into their lives at that time, it brings tears to my eyes how little I know some of them and how little I know about how their childhood was, I just know that it was hard and there was not a lot of love and caring for them, so no wonder that they did not know how to love me, care for me or guide me through hard times, they just looked the other way, that was  the only think they knew and that is what they came with in their baggage.

I sincerely will do all my best to work on this forgiveness so that I can let these people free and myself at the same time.

I want to say, forgive me to my lovely wonderful children for all my mistakes they were not made to hurt you,  they were done with all the love I had, I didn’t know better at that time and I want also to thank you all for loving me so much and supporting me when I’m going through hard times, that is priceless for me and makes me believe that I did something right, I do LOVE you from the bottom of my heart and always will.

My healing process goes on and it will only get better.

💗