When you hit the bottom.....

When we hit the rock bottom which I think all of us do, some of us more often than others which I thought was because we did not learn from our misstakes, I learned later, that's not the case.

Through my life I have made many mistakes some because I did not know better at that time and though, I was doing the right thing, but others, because I was protecting my family, and though that my decision was the only way to do so. The thing is that when you hit the bottom your not able to think right your not able to see the whole picture, your mind is in a survival mode, the problem takes 

 over there is no time to sit down and consider the option you might have, hope is gone, and when hope is gone, there is not much left. There are not many years since I never thought I would be able to sit here In my  home save and happy, seeing my children living a happy fulfilled life, I realize that going through this hard times had big effects on their lives. 

To loose hope a situation like this when you hit the bottom is the worst of all, try to hide this horrible feeling from your children is the worst, at a time like this it's so important to have a strong soulmate and that's what I have been blessed with, my husband and I have always stayed close together holding each other up embrace each other with unconditional love and never blaming each other for the situation we were going through, kept my going.

As years go by I have learned not to judge myself  from the mistakes I have made in life, I have been able after a long period of shame, denials, and of course trying to put the blame on everything and everyone else, realised that everything I did I did for the love of my family and at that time I didn't know better.

I'm no longer defining myself based on the problems/misstakse I have made in life, I believe now that I deserve all the best in the world,  like all of you out there we just have to believe that, and live our lives like we believe it.

Love and huge each other, have faith in your talents, if you do mistake than talk about it to your loved ones find a way out together it's so important to be able to talk, to feel that your loved that your life has a purpose and that you belong were you are.

Childhood..

How was your childhood is a question often asked, that's understandable for we believe that's what makes us whom we are. I have worked with children my whole life it has been my passion it has given me lots of fantastic time where I have enjoyed children's sincerity, happiness, and there honest way to approach every project. Children in preschool make there first steps in learning the social skills which they will use in the preschool life, and hopefully generally in their future,

it's in the preschool they adopt the ability to be in a group, where  they have to take into account the needs of others, some children are very good in all this social skills from start, while others need help to be able to understand all this new challenges that the preschool life brings to them, I never look at a child as the bad or good ones I always see them as who they are what is they're background they're family, and most and foremost I always try as much as possible to involve parents when I'm working with a child,  we often say that we all are different, that's the same with children, and our job is not to make all children alike it's to make them believe in their self be a strong independent individual, that is there the we, preschool teacher comes in and uses all the experience and knowledge we have to guide this children so that theyr preschool life will be a success and so that the go from there to school as a strong individual happy child, too be able to experience that is what I love about working with children when I can use my experience, and knowledge to be there for ”my children”

I often wondered if there has never been some researcher that have been interested in doing a study on preschool children, because that's a very important time in their live and I believe for their future, if you know about any kind of research in that field then please let me know. 

CHILDREN ARE THE FUTURE ❤️

Don't worry ....

Worrying about to morrow, my children, my husband, my friends, my work, my finance has always been one of my worst enemy, mostly because I could not control all of this, that's inpossible, so worrying and not being able to do anything about all of this took a lot of energy, gave me sleepless nights, and often irritating my children and my husband because I m asking to many questions that can not be answered.

But worrying about everyone else has made me forget to think about myself, I have given all my
energy to try to make sure that everyone else are okay, sometimes this has been so bad that I most of all want to take their problem over so that they don't have to worry.
That's from my point of view taking care of everyone, to make sure that they are okay I feel like that's  my  responsibility, this feeling has been a part of my life for so long time that it is hard for me suddenly to look the other way, sure everyone is doing well, I just have this strong urge to make everyone happy, is that so wrong?
No it's not, but if I want to be there for my familie and friends being able to work with that I love, it's important to listen to my own feelings take care of  myself so that I can be able to be there for them.

LOVE YOURSELF THEN YOUR ABEL TO LOVE OTHERS❤️

Who are you?...

I m a mother, wife, grandmother, friend, preschool teacher, coworker, this roles have been very dominating and controlling in my life, I'm of course still in some of those roles and loving it, but this past months I have thought very much about my personal identity, who am I this woman Diana,  when I'm suddenly not are going to work every day, something that I have done since I was a teenager, my children don't need me as before, I can borrow my grandchildren but don't have anything to do with their future, except loving them.

I realise that I have put myself aside for all those roles and now when I don't have them in my everyday life I am forced to consider who I am??

That is what I have been working on this past months it has been challenging and very important for me, this work is not over yet and perhaps will never be.

But I know now that, we must never forget ourselves and let the roles in our lives take over, when they're time is over, who are you then.

LOVE YOUR ROLES IN LIVE! 

BUT ALWAYS BE YOUSELF❤️

Pay it forward....

Tak for dig/thangs for you that reads my post , thanks for your that can use my post to live in the moment, enjoy live at the best, be glad over who you are, what you're doing in your life,  if that's the case, then you have made my day and my writing worth doing, because I believe that if we are glad about ourselves and the live we live,then the world will be better and we spread out to other people happiness, love and kindness, what can be  better for the world, 

PAY IT FORWARD ❤️

Working in the garden is the best....

I find it very relaxing and healing to work in my garden, get my fingers dirty, watch the process of my work It takes my mind of all the things I worry about and are making my life difficult, gives me sleepless nights, bad stomach and problem with consecration.

When being in the garden nursing my plants I find myself singing and I'm totally relaxed, and afterwards I have much more energy, I'm better to take rational decisions that helps me move forward in my process of healing.

GET YOUR FINGERS DIRTY AND EXPERIENCE PEACE OF MIND.......🌱🌱

Are you sexy......

I read a lot and always have, its just all sorts of books, and now I'm reading a book, that in the beginning was very heavy and I almost through it away, but I kept on reading, and now I am about to be finished with it. I am telling you it is so much truth, in this book, for example that cliche about being sexy, what is is that, is it they way you look, move, dress, or how much of  your body you show? 

There are so many women that misunderstand that word, sexy, and they are trying all there live to understand that, doing everything to being looked at, admired and most of all make other women's want to be like them, I have been there struggeling to been seen admired and been so unhappy about myself I  could not live up to the the standard of being sexy, and God did I try I took all method in use, but never got there.

Then I got a little bit closer to the truth about being sexy, I had to start with myself how I felt about myself where was my self-esteem who am I what is it that makes me feel good about maysef,it's has been a long journey and I think it never really ends, that book I'm reading now proofs that.

In that book the mother had to explain to her, daughters, what being sexy is, and she did it beautifully by telling them that sexy is whitin you, like and know yourself as you are, and like the way you look like how you think and how you feel, she does not try to change herself to fit into others idea of how she should be, she is not afraid to be herself, happy, angry, afraid, in love all these feelings are true feelings, her feelings and there is nothing to be ashamed of.

To be sexy is more about how you feel then about how you look.

IM SEXY AND I LIKE IT🤗

Sorry, for myself...

The last days I have felt very sorry for myself, I couldn't see all the positive things in life, felt that life was unfair, poor me and way me, what have I done to deserve this?

All this negative thoughts have ruined some beautiful days in my life, why do this happen way do I fall into this self-pity and way do I use a bauteful sunny day to break my down? there must be some meaning of all that,  is it to make me more thankful, to make me look at how other people have to struggle for their lives, if that's the case, then  then you got me,  I have thought about all of this and it has made me realize how great my life is.

 I had forced  myself out of this thoughts, make a positive list” of my life:

My health is getting much better.

I have never taken so good care of myself.

My husband loves me and I love him.

My children are all doing good in their lives.

I have wonderful crandchildren.

I have a home where I feel that I am safe.......

The list is endless, I know this was good for my that has been a wake-up call for me, not to give up, keep on remained myself how wonderful life is and how thankful I can be for all of this wonderful thinga in my life. 

It was not easy so much can I tell you my husband Was very helpful in this situation and pointed out  all the great things in my life it really helps to have someone who loves you and can be there for you and I am really fighting to stay positive, happy and feeling unique 

JUST LOVING MYSELF AS I AM.

We all have our op and downs in life, but we must never be impatient with our self, never forget to love our self, we are whort all the good and great things in life.

🤗

I'm unique..

Have you ever thought about that you are unique, there is no one like you or me,  no matter how much you dislike or disliked yourself you are unique, isn't that fabulous, I love the thought of it, I'm proud and happy to be me. Now when there is so much body - worship, it's very important that you love yourself as you are, don't try to be someone else that doesn't make you happy that I promise you, the thought of me being unique makes me happy.

LOVE YOURSELF - BE HAPPY 😊

Who sitting on your front row?

For many years ago a wise women told me that I could choose who is sitting on my front row, it has to be someone I think I can trust and would be okay with having so close to me, I really can trust and they trust me.

Believe me it's not easy to find such people I have so many times been disappointed when I've put al my trust in people, letting them sitting on the front row, but then I discover that they aren't worthy of of my trust, I was very naive, to think that everyone has the same understanding about friendship trust and loyalty as I have.

Now when I know this,  I'm very careful about how and whom I associate with, everyone has the same opportunity, but in the end it is me that chooses who sits in my front row.

Be the boss in your life that gives you freedom to choose🤗

Disagreements...

I have been thinking about how often we disagree with one another it can be about everything, big and small issues, I wonder what it is that does it so important for us to convince people that our opinion is the only one that is right, way can we not have respect for the fact that we can never all have the same opinion, that is what gives our life diversity, is the beauty in it. 

We can always be agree with friends and family to be disagree.

But you can always change your mind.

Showing respect and listen gives you peace of mind.

Peace be with you 🤗